hmmmmm is blogger working anymore?

I just tried posting in another of my blogs and the post doesn't seem to have appeared on the main page.
Whats up blogspot - new format not working? Roll it back please.

In other news ipredict finally listened to the hordes of people who were leaving and revised its fee structure. So I am back on there again.
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Its bad when you start the day with - "Well I can't be fucked, I busy enough already"

Sorry guys, I don't usually do this.......but I am tired. I am cranky......I NEED TO VENT!!!!

Its bad when you start the day with - "Well I can't be fucked, I busy enough already"
But this is the cold, hard truth that I am facing.
Its 10:30pm, I have a list of things to do before tomorrow.......but I can't be fucked.

I worked dumb hours last week. Because I have to do a big project.......and to get to site is 4 hours drive. So that basically means that I am driving 1 day of the week. Working another 5. My weekends are chewed up with either Uni tests or looking at houses/cars for wife......or if I am lucky cleaning. Then preparing for the next day of craziness......

This just goes round and round. I don't get stuff all time to spend with my future son or my wife for the matter. Whom needs all the help she can get at this point. The dumb hours I am working are just going to get worse this week as not only do I have to do all the dumb stuff I did last week......but I also I need to chew up what is left of my weekend by also setting up for a training course next week. Why the weekend.......BECAUSE I AM TOO BUSY THIS WEEK AND NEXT WEEK TO DO IT!!!!

This only gets worse when I look at how I am appreciated. Yep I worked it out. After tax, my last bonus and pay rise worked out to a 0.6% per annum increase over what was getting paid from day one........18 months ago. To make matters worse, this is still 20% lower than what I was being paid 2 years ago.

This image pretty much summed up how I felt like while I am tapping away at the keyboard right now.

Nuff said really.
MBA done in June
Baby boy due June
Big project finished in June

June sounds like an interesting month, need to line a few things up I think......and have a break for once.

Right that felt better. See I needed to vent. Now back to the things I was suppose to do tonight.......fuck it, I'm off to bed.



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What is your brand? Would you trust your brand with others?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6c0VtOdibcI
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Atlast Shrugged part 1......IN MOVIE FORM

This has to be one of my all time favorite books. EVERY HARD WORKER SHOULD READ IT.

Before all of you ask me, "Who is John Galt?" - he is the creator of the engine.

 
Engine of what you ask? Now that would be telling.......
http://www.atlasshruggedpart1.com
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Some old notes I had from 2008.......oddly put into a folder named only "book"

Written 2008….notes for book??? Or more random ramblings…..
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Well its 0700, i have been up since 0530, while this in turn is not shocking (lord knows i have done worse to my body in the past). I figure it is time i taught myself how to be a better person.
So welcome to the Journey.

I'm sorry if the terms i use in this book feel very "Engineer-like", but that is what i am. I walked away with my Bachelors and enough hands on skills to take on the world. How little did i know that I would become my own worst enemy in terms of my own future progress? That brings me to my first topic :

Resistance:
Contrary to most beliefs resistance is not the ability to stop things.
It is actually the ability to slow things.
So how does this translate to your life? We'll to put it nicely Human
resistance is the ability (whether you want it or not) to slow things as
they pass through you.
Human resistance however due to materials that make us up, changes. So while
one day you may be massively affected by something that is presented to you,
you may become hardened to these items in future. It is all relative to your
perspective at the time. This change in resistance can make grown men cry and
sweet women cruel.
A visual example of living resistance is that of a river bed. A river bed is
forever changing. Some days its collects more resistance in the forms of silt,
tree branches, river rocks changing position, even kids slowing up the river
flow for fun. But likewise every year, in the wet seasons a massive flood
washes down the river and often removes all excess resistance from the bed.
As humans we are not so lucky, we can quite often collect resistance and
store it for many years. And just like a river collecting excess resistance,
we eventually end up with a dam - blocking all flows through us.
This brings me to the next topic, directly related to resistance : conductivity.
Conductivity is the science of breaking resistance, allowing things to flow through or past you. The best saying I have ever heard on manipulating conductivity was by the hong kong great, bruce lee. Bruce states `you must become fluid like water...if water goes into a glass water becomes the glass.`
This means that you need to be able to change when situations change. You need to be dynanic AND flexible. You need to be water. You need to conduct in your chosen environment.
The downside of conductivity is the fact that people can also become weak. With a lack o their own resisatance. To looks back a bruces thoery. What good is a cup of water chucked in the ocean.
So now its sounding complicated
The reality in life is a lot of things sound difficult but in reality they are simpler then you have percieved them. Very few things in history are achievable by savants alone.
Tiger woods is not the greatest golfer there will always be.

It has been a while since I have updated here but here is the basic rundown. I left hvpower for no reason but leaving NZ for a job I Aussie. The money was not better. But I was getting to safe...... But opening a can of worms is an understatement to how tough it’s been. But I know what I know. And most of the time lessons are learnt the hard way.

So with that said today’s term is... Serenity.
Contrary to what you are thinking. Serenity is not always a good think. For two reasons as there are two versions of serenity. The achievable and the unachievable. Achievable serenity is the kind where you have to do nothing and it appears. When I was young and stupid - I could achieve this on daily basis. At the time I was growing. Trading and taking drugs. I was troubled by my home life at te time and while I needed to be calm a collected around my peers a family. I was losing it inside. Drugs gave me the calm serenity I needed. But took away more than I could imagine. They took away my drive to achieve greater tasks. To pass my comfort zone. I was not going backwards by any means. But I would never go forward either. I had reached achievable serenity. The good balanced the bad and all was right with the world.

Unachievable serenity is the kind where you get o satisfaction at all. A lot of people will tell you that you can achieve anything at all. I'm going to tell you that if you try you may lose it all.
When I was a child I hated heights. This was fear nothing more or less. But a fear that told me that I could achieve nothing to do with heights. But if I ignored that fear. Attempted Everest and died who would have said "maybe that was a bad idea because he was scared".

But alas I digress. My key points here are you fears most of the times are the opposites of your ambitions. If a fear is found fundamental to you - it may be there for a reason. See if you can find an alternative rather than always conquer you fear. You may find that the alternative is your nice. Rather than bastardising your goals so that you achieve "a pass" in something you had no interest in, in the first place.
I bet the guy named Jesus made a really crap carpenter do his fear of being told what to do. Who knows - maybe he walked on water because he could not swim?

Either way if Jesus was to die a man in serenity. He was not going to do it via building a nice house.
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Nitro-Circus Hamilton

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Sometimes we get caught up in the "MUST DO THIS" stage

Sometimes we get caught up in the "MUST DO THIS" stage, and we find ourselves in the position where we tried to get everything done (to spend time doing the things we like)......only to find that list is bottomless.
(house pictures are from a couple of nice looking builds I saw on Architizer - thought I better share the inspiration......keep reading.....)

I have discovered recently, that if you have enough self drive, that list forever increases in length - and on the flip side of the coin - if you have no drive......no items on the most basic of lists are done. Your house isn't vacuumed, the dishes sit in the sink, that project you started 6 months ago, never moves. Life stands still according to your list - but in reality the list keeps growing out of your control.

So what do you do. Well I can tell you now - the problem is not the list, its not you. Its the fact that we are put in a place assuming the role of the perpetual worker. As you know, as good worker - makes everything in his/her job a "MUST DO" task. Must clean the bench. Must get that proposal in today. Must get home by 5:30pm........and while these things are good - when you think about it; Are they must do?
Can they wait an hour? a week? a day?
So is being your best - the best you can be? Or the best you can do for now because you must do this other thing right now......
Obviously the flip of this is you get lazy, unmotivated....can't be F***ed. You think that if you stop doing things, you will be fine. But the fact of the matter is that while the world passes you by minutes, hours, then days......then one day you sit back and realize that you have this massive catchup list you need to do, the one that has built up over years. You jump out of productivity rehab, get told to run when you can barely walk.

This weekend I experience the middle ground. The 'must do' tasks changed from ones with deadlines, to ones that I wanted to happen. My uni stuff, my work stuff, even the household cleaning became second priorities to holding my wife, talking to my unborn son, chatting with friends over dinner/drinks, prepping cleaning room, sorting my motorbike......and I even dedicated some time to thinking.

Isn't it strange that we always imagine "thinking about something" is a must do task. Yet when we get around to it - the response is simply "Oh I don't have time for that now - lets just get this done".
Imagine if your doctor just pulled you into the operating theater and said that. Or a builder built a house without a drawing.

YOU MUST DEDICATE TIME TO THINK.

Even if its only 5 minutes to contemplate why you are unhappy in your job, unhappy in a relationship......or more importatly what you are happy for.

After 5 minutes of thinking you will come to some most profane conclusions. It may change you entire day. Your whole "Must do" list goes out the window. Because when you think of your priorities - is your life currently catering for them?

Take care all
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